My Paper Heart ♥

my birthday is getting neare each day.

2009-12-07T06:47:00.000-08:00

hubby is coming back home soon.
miss him :P
okays, today woke up at 2 pm plus.
cooking porridge as i was really hungry okay. D;
ok la, this few days i have been acting weird..
as in , going to toilet even i'm still on bed.
eats alot this few days. kept getting hungry ):
and my menstruation should come on dec 5,i'd late two days period.
obviously,i'm not expecting la. haha.

anw, i wanna bake cookies. but i need all the ingredients.
saddening.

bye~~

just one thing i knew.

2009-12-06T09:20:00.001-08:00

the things i knew it was, i'm unbearable.
super spectic.LOL
and someone wouldn't just understands me D;
i cry for the whole night and i knew how was it going to be next alrd.
i guess,seperated is the best.

one more thing that is.

we can't gain if we can't let go.
there's no love without tears,there's no happiness without sacrifice
and there's no forever without goodbyes.

now i understood.

it's gonna leave me alone again.

2009-12-06T01:18:00.001-08:00

mother fucker,i am so damn pissed of right now.
knncbpcb.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wish i just never known you b4.
i want a boyf that can treat me better and not leaving me alone!!!!

it seems like ppl does changed. D;

2009-12-05T18:11:00.000-08:00

world changed,so do human changed.
something to me is not right this few days,although it's still me
i found out that you don't even bother me at all
is there something bothering you or what?
cos i think our relationship getting too much awkward.
and i know is my fault for being too questioning,as i should trust you somehow.
i know my temper is unreasonable for this few weeks,i will get frustuated and will start bad mouth-ing ppl.

LOVEYOU HUBBY(;

2009-12-05T04:51:00.001-08:00

chen weikang!! faster come back home. D;
i miss you la~

I LOVE MY HUBBY!

2009-12-04T19:50:00.000-08:00

LOLOLOL.
nothing to do):
life is so boring,fuck it.
tonight hubby will be home late,he says.
and will be waiting for him till he gets home.
ilovehim(:

i've dyed my hair.!!!

2009-12-04T00:07:00.000-08:00

i'm dying~
quarrel with hubby yesterday! fook!
i want a tattoo!! darrr....giv me permission to do 4 lei.
one on hand.one on back shoulder ,one on butt above and one on my waist....~~

2009-12-03T00:45:00.001-08:00

OMG!! baby is so damn cute la.
i wish i had one,seriously. D;
hubby said we'll have one soon.zzz
i want a baby girl and boy (:
but i'm afraid of PAIN!!
look at the pictures of baby..!!
so damn cute!!

hubby went off to work,will be home late at night. ):
i love him so much cannnn!!
i'm waiting for him to be back.(:
love him always(:

to cassandra chew wenci;

2009-12-02T19:56:00.000-08:00

although we have some quarrels between us
but our love for each other doesn't fade.
we will never walk our own ways
and sister ship would always be remain as usual.
to compare you and teressa lah, you're the one i mostly care for.
we can even act like a real sister already,like.
crying tgt ,do the same things ,talk the same things ,quarrel like a sister ain't we?
i don't think you're not my friend, cos in my heart you're part of me, you're my real sister.
i can say that, i can't lose you,really.
cos partly in my life,i can never wanting you to leave.
i don't want to be your girlf,i want to be your kindly of real sister.

just don't keep things to yourself.
things that you don't like i'm doing,just say it.
you don't have to keep things to yourself de.
i seriously wants to take care of you,not get cheated by others.
ah yong can be trusted de. believe me.

iloveyou lah.!

tomorrow going out with cassandra. (:

2009-11-30T18:52:00.000-08:00

not sure meeting girlf tomorrow not.
we're going to watch a christmas carol.
hubby went off to work alrd.
and me,using the com(:
LOVE HIM :D

fook!!

2009-11-29T00:58:00.001-08:00

CHEN WEIKANG SUCKS!
ihateyou today._|_
you go and die,i wish you didn't even exist me.
fuck you!

i wanna watch a christmas carol.!!
who wanna pei me watch?!?!
i wanna go shop.!!
i wanna see baby's stuff!!
i want a baby.
i wanna eat japanese food.!!
D; who can pei me???????

2009-11-27T21:26:00.000-08:00

yesterday's fun and today story's

2009-11-27T20:24:00.001-08:00

yesterday's:
went to meet cassandra and her mei at kovan around going to 1?
i'm late again.,taxi's fault.
heh heh heh, sorry la~~~ :P
new friend ,clement age15 gender: male.
character, is childish thinking (:
MRT down to tampines mall walk walk.
go shop for baby's stuff. is cute de la, the clothe the shoes all these.
so small size.!! laughs.
yeah,i wanted a baby so so much. D;
so.....~
eaten over there. hungry alright!!
then MRT down to dhoby shop.
many things happen after that -.-
but everythings fine now (: don't @#$%& anymore uh.
went to cotton on buy things ,we bought shoes. (:
YAY new shoes again.
next we are gong to buy bags. (:
GIRLF MEET UP SOON TO BUY OUR BAGS!!

hubby went to work this morning, now misses him.
although we can see each other everyday.

but i just don't know why will miss him loh

fuck.
hope hubby sunday is off.!!
haha..
byebye.(:

outing with cassandra!!

2009-11-25T19:47:00.001-08:00

today meeting cassandra at 12.30 at her block downstair(:
will be home around 8 plus? idk.
heh heh heh..
byebye.

chen weikang's char bor.

2009-11-24T21:12:00.000-08:00

today morning dar went to work.
hubby's blanket so smelly.!! sweat smell-.-
i hope you'll be back early everyday D;
you're mine!

tomorrow going to meet cassandra at around 12?
going to tm to settle things out.
end my post here.

hubby&wifey

2009-11-23T23:30:00.001-08:00

i wanna let the whole world knows who i loved!

2009-11-23T23:21:00.000-08:00

ILOVEYOU CHENWEIKANG!!!
peeepo, chen weikang this bitch is MINE.
who ever snatch it,i'll slap (:

knnbccb!! ,i want my hubby to stay at home with me~
he's such a idiot ,but i love how he act idiot.
that boy,silly.

ILOVEYOU TO THE MAX!!

love,
Felicia;

i'll be by your side,don't you worry anymore. (:

2009-11-23T17:02:00.000-08:00

i'll be the one for you.
as i promise to do so (:
is just that you keep tearing me apart.
sigh~

yesterday,hubby misunderstood me and zhen long conversations,
in MSN.
but everything was fine now.
he trusted me.

hubby,i just want you to know that,iloveyou only.
my eyes only have you but no others.
really.
you've got to believe me.
you're the one holding my future and that's it.
the only answer,is the only reason.
dar, you're my one&only (:

i seriously hate my what i've heard.!

2009-11-22T04:57:00.000-08:00

do you all know.
when you had a guy,and his alrd yours,and out side he's having another girl..
bring her home ,fuck her up and bath with her.
many days from WHAT I'VE HEARD FROM THE MAID.!
because i know the maid very well, she told me.
110209 i've alrd going steady with CHEN WEIKANG this fucking cheater.
200209, the maid came,and i have not still staying at his house.
the maid says :last time weikang always bath with the gf.
me : when was it?
maid: when i came.
and i told her
by the time she came i alrd with weikang. she say no.

next,i called the cheater, do you know what he say?
he said, cos that time also not serious with you wad.

what kind of guy is this?

he alrd have me, and still with another girl?
he say he was playing her,and what bout me?
playing her,cheating on me behind?
right?

FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND.
you wait and see.

todad is my lucky day:D

2009-11-21T06:28:00.000-08:00

today dinner and supper is so so good.
hubby's mother cook *zhu jiao tang*
and hubby's father bought back chilli crab home.
yummy.
cherylene and ling en going overseas
cherylene went to japan for cca and ling en went to perth for holiday.
you 2 promise me to be back safe and back with my souvenior uh.:P
CHEN WEIKANG SUCKS!

it's gonna be a bad day from now on.

2009-11-19T22:58:00.000-08:00

today mood was still fine,hubby went to work alrd.
and than soon,we are going to genting, don't know when was it.

bored bored bored._.
i have no appetite!
hais...

genting.you'll wait for us.

had a high high fever.):

2009-11-15T21:12:00.000-08:00

gosh!, what happen to me?!?!
my head is spinning , my whole body hurts, my stomach is bloated
and i want to vomit.
i have no appetite ):
and my degree is 39.9.!!!
couldn't sleep the whole night.
i was shivering like don't know what.!!
my lips turn purple.
OMG D;

thanks hubby for taking care of me,
only when i'm sick :D

hubby's mother cooking is great.!

2009-11-13T02:32:00.000-08:00

hubby's mother cooking is real great.!
specially the chicken.!
yeah,had dinner without that IDIOT.
anw, i'm waiting for my anime.!! *kimi ni todoke*
and my *tao hua xiao mei* D;

heh heh heh...

i wanna love him eternity. :D
I

L
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V
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Y
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C
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(:

kept thinking over and over and over.

2009-11-10T23:18:00.000-08:00

something just keep flashing in my mind.!
and i seriously hate it.!! _|_
motherfucker
i seriously wanted to end the relationship sometimes!
you know how much i wanted to be better than all of your sucker ex girf?
you know how much i wanted you to love me more than all of them?
you know how much i needed your care,love and attention?
do you know how much i wanted to be your first girl to treat you not as the same as them?
do you know that how much i wanted to be selfish?
you said you have never care too much for a girl but me, and you lied.!
i wasn't the first girl you care too much for.
am i that stupid that you can lied on to?
do you know how much those first and last mean to me?

i want you to love me more than the others.!
i want you to treat me better than the other.!
I WANT TO BE IMPORTANT IN THE FIRST SIGHT!

do you know how much you mean to me?
do you know how much trust i have in you?
do you know how much i have confident in you?
do you know how much i love you?
do you know how much i wanted to be with you till our time end?

it's all that you can never known.
even if i'm naked around you,you can never see through how much i've done.
never.

you had even told everyone that you wanted to marry me.
so, why not stop putting a flash in my mind?
can you love me like no others?
will you hold me tight as ever and never fall?
you said you wanted marry me, will you kept your promise?

dearly, i do really love you so. D;

things i saw -.-

2009-11-10T21:41:00.000-08:00

was tidying up the room for my boyf,and guess what i've found?
his love letter from evelyn .
her english is so er hum-.-
anw, the things i ask c.w.k. bout his ex all these..
his ans wasn't the same. LOL?
erm....i guess i'm speechless now?
did he lied to me or what?
i'm somehow like a mute.
i think i.....shouldn't read the letter?
anw,it's the past aren't it?
why is it like *just* to me???
oh no, i'm S.P.E.E.C.H.L.E.S.S D;

heh heh, anw i don't really wanted to care so much.
now the things i have to care is.
for hubby's own good and for my own good. (:
idiot, why does he kept things behind me while i read the letter he told
all the things about him to his ex girlf? FUCKED.
but not me? wth . i'm now his girlf ain't me??
wth wtf wth wtf , shit you CHEN WEIKANG.
you better make things clear or else ,afetr you came back from work, i'll screw you up.
UNDERSTOOD?!?!?!?
and i will not cook for you anymore.!! humph!
i'm angry now.!!

i'm speechless.

2009-11-10T09:02:00.000-08:00

mood currently not right D;
and my degree is getting deeper
currently now adays out of cash ):
sad uh?
i wanna shop shop shop till i drop.
oh ya,and i'm looking for jobs too..
heh heh..
i'm tired. good night(:

home alone.

2009-11-06T21:57:00.001-08:00

hubby's family went to zoo, and hubby went to work ):
hubby today very naughty.!! :@
iloveyou!! (:

we'll last de,don't worry anymore.
i won't leave you le.
one&only.

you&me unbreakable. :D
no one can ever enter one of us.

TO ALL PEOPLE..

I BELONG TO CHENWEIKANG ONLY

i want a water birth when i had a baby.

2009-11-05T21:15:00.001-08:00

i wish i was now 17,and had a little baby in my stomach.
hmmm, anw i found a video that a mummy went to water birth.
it's told that it can loosen your vagina so that wouldn't be so pain,and it's also relax..
the water is warm though.
naturally baby birth.
cool,i shall try when i'm giving birth.

i want a water birth when i had a baby.

2009-11-05T21:15:00.000-08:00

teressa&felicia out!

2009-11-04T05:17:00.001-08:00

okays,teressa came sembawang to meet me and off we go to
my fathers's shop,compass point ,bishan and thn home.(:

going out with hubby and ah li to celebrate ah keng b'day
and prawning.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AH KENG :D

going to grow white hair.

2009-11-02T08:55:00.000-08:00

Stress, mood swing at most time.
hope it hadn't been this way. _|_

way to coffin.

iloveyou to the max,really.

2009-11-01T05:01:00.000-08:00

ILOVE CHEN WEIKANG!

Bokura ga Ita

2009-10-30T02:07:00.001-07:00

this *Bokura ga Ita* is a very sad show..really nice.
the moral or it's story is, that guy has a lot of pass..
cheating many others girl..and had betrayed a girl called nana-san and her younger sister.
when reached nana-san birthday,that guy didn't text her or call her for the whole day.
after nana-san ex came upon her and wish her happy b'day and bla bla bla nana-san got up to her ex xar,meanwhile had an car accident.

the other part of the story is that....yano,hiding from takahashi for his bad past.
after takahashi lerns that yano had sex with many other girl in the past, she kept quiet and think for the whole weeks...

she say it not fair for her,but she will forgvie him from all the past and carry on to love yano..

so,the reason is she love yano that she can tried to forgive and forget what he had done..
must watch !!!

A CRAZIEST DAY EVER.!

2009-10-24T11:18:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry casandra, dont mean to let you wait for me so long.

around 3 plus thn meet teressa and casandra , it suppose to be 1.30pm meet de.
but things gone wrong ,so yea.(:
meet them at j8 at the food court ,they eating.
afterwards went to sasa bought the perfume. :D
thn went to vivo... was taking alot alot alot of pics you know..!!
i went crazy after that, reached vivo , once step it into toy 'r' us ,we went crazy.
really crazy,what i expected was not to be that..but end up.. i was the one who gone mad.
talking to ang mo kia. taking pictures with ang mo ppl.

out ,for shopping and looking for jobs!

2009-10-23T22:15:00.000-07:00

currently at hubby house,waiting for teresa.
she said she will bath ,change thn come down sembawang thn together go j8.(:
also meeting casandra over there.
and thn off we go.(:

hubby went off to work. ):
he has a bad coughing and i also have.
i wanna have $$ and shop till my pocket gets big hole.!! ):
still waiting....hmm....

alright..i'll leave my post here..

CHEN WEIKANG,YOU BETTER DRINK MORE WATER!!
ILOVEYOU!

tonight gonna be a good night, not.

2009-10-20T23:27:00.000-07:00

having a bad bad sore throat):
having a bad bad running nose.):
bored bored bored.
i wanna find work.
i wanna earn my own money.
i wanna go shop.
i wanna go out.
i wanna travel.
i wanna,i wanna,i wanna!!!!

who can pei me go find work.):
haissss!!!

fcuk.!! i'm hungry now.saddening T.T
i go find thing to eat liao buhbyes. :D

A day sad & happy.

2009-10-20T08:27:00.000-07:00

okays,today went out with dar, da jie ,jie ,ah boy ,xiao bai ,xin hao ,xiao chen ,gary & others.
went to *sem pup* drink and sing..happy, xin hao drunk-.- haha orh bee.. >< hmmm...
actually was nothing la..kinda fun (:
and and i had a sore throat ): keep running nose also :C

i love them:D
stay happy happy. haha..
i like xiao chen's joke,make me laugh till peng.

byebye.!!!

i've learn my mistakes.

2009-10-19T08:59:00.000-07:00

due to yesterday also can say today things,is really big matter.
i didn't know so much people hate me.
i really didn't know what is my wrong.

and finally someone corrected me by my fucking attitude towards my dar.
and more of me to be told.

i seriously don't know what the hell is going on with me,really.
something really bothering me but i just don't know what was it.
i wanted to show my love and concern backwards & towards everyone.
but the thing is,i don't know how.

sorry for my childish thinking and my cb attitude,really.

da jie and jie : i promise i won't be like what i use to be ,serious.
and the important thing is, try to understand why i'm like this.
i came from a broken family, get used by my 2nd brother which is he hit me alot.
my father has to work and he's not feeling well as he himself is a smoker.

what ever it is,i seriously don't really want to be such a burden.
which people might think i don't care everything keep attitude and childish.

i also don't wish to be like that.
one shot give so many people think for who i am and what i am.
i know what does you all meant.
but things should be told in personality.

okay,it's kinda complicated,i just simply wanted to say sorry for what i am.
also , i really do want to be with c.w.k. and give all my trust ,love to him.

so.................i can say,i'm not what you might think for who i am and what i am.

not again.!! _|_

2009-10-10T21:55:00.000-07:00

okays,i don't know what going on right now..-.-
yesterday something happen and quarrel again.
feeling kinda weird.
and the feeling is knnbccbbbb..
went chee tiong and xiao chen b'day.
but i'm making everyone upset..
is like i don't know what...is not my day,but i ruin it..
hais..sorry everyone.
anw happy b'day to the both of them.

FINALLY.!

2009-10-09T03:55:00.002-07:00

Finally,ended my examination.!! woo hoo.~~ !!
ni ma ma feng.!! everyday FRC that black teacher keep calling my name with mic.! _|_
okays nvm...finally just ended.
hubby fetch my today with darren,oh...hoe sweet uh? :P
but it's not at all.-.- i just mood swing after that.
today i get so high and high and high and i don't know why.-.-
so annoying,i hate people talks to me,is an out of sudden.. shit..attitude is back. ):
miss my daughter bibi. :P missed so so much you know.!! i wonder if she'll think i came back alrd..lol.
nothing to type alrd..missed my hubby and bibi..
byebye.. :D

FINALLY.!

2009-10-09T03:55:00.001-07:00

trying hard to treat you good.

2009-10-05T03:26:00.000-07:00

i'm trying my best to treat you right.
i'm afraid that i trusted in you too much,and you'll cheat me one day.
you know, i love you so much and alrd given you my future as you ask for it.
因為是你.我發現自己可以不管別人.因為是你我知道我愛你.110209
since the day that i love you,i was thinking you're the only one for me.

i really tried hard to eradicate being selfish.
i'm sorry hubby.):

as you know,i'm afriad to lose you.

i'll promise not to leave.

2009-10-03T02:04:00.000-07:00

Hello(:
have to thanks delphine and yumin,for helping me.
if not,i don't even know weikang's feeling and thinking.
although our gap between us are far,but this is miracle :D
we can last this long.
i just want to treat him good,but it's hard to change my attitude.
but i'm willing to try hard to change,for the sake for him.
as you all i do love him:P

As i said i love you.
and for the sake for you and i,let's stop quarreling.
if you had something to get off from your chest ,just let me be your listening ear,
will you?
i wanted to know you more..
so,give me one more chance to treat you good and let me understand you.
don't hide things from me anymore.
i want to know.
give me the chance to love you from the bottom from my heart.
i promise not to lie or argue with you.
i just want to let you know,
i will change for you.

iloveyou to the core.

i'll stay stronger.

2009-10-01T22:22:00.000-07:00

this days,i'm so moody,and i don't know why.
i feel bored everyday.
i feel so exhausted,peoples talk to me it prickles me.
i felt so disturbing,and i just want to shout.
i want cry out my feeling,i want to let people know i'm sad.
i had been too naive through years.
i does thing inadvertently now a days.
there's something in me,but who i could share it?
there's many thing i wanted to say,trying to lighten my chest.
taking a deep breath .
but everytime i does that,i didn't know where to start.
how could it possible to be this way?
is like,i became so curious in everything and keep wanting to know more.
oftenly i just like a mute girl.

the periods hurts like hell.
i hate it.

sorry hubby,i just don't know what to do.
after you told me the truth,hardly to take a lead to move on.
but i'll try my very best to be good.
certainly,i promise i'll stop my nagging.
as you know i do really love you,hope you understand why am i acting like this.
too hush ..something i wanted is just unattainable.
is not fair for you ain't ?
i know i am running away from facts.
there's way i could face it.
we shall stop arguing and quarreling.
what ever it is..is my fault.
i neglected you.i'm sorry.
love you to core.

how i wish i dont know you.

2009-10-01T21:08:00.000-07:00

my life is just like a drama.
ridiculous & pathetic enough.

a lousy daughter.
a lousy girlf.
a lousy student.
a trouble maker.
a manipulate person.
i can't do any surpass.
no matter how hard i've tried to be, i can never pass.

next.
i can never be a good wife.
can never be a good mother.
a lousy worker.
salary would be low.
how could i ever support a family with my husband?
i will my child suffer and awkward.

school fees,health care,food,clothes,bill and all.
what ever it is..i'm not going to let this thing happen to us.

singapore is a money face country.
with just a paper and picture in it,could buy things.

a very restricted place

i don't want it to BE the truth.[♥]

2009-09-30T23:16:00.000-07:00

IHATEYOU.!

I JUST HATE YOU.!
MOTHER FUCKER! _|_

STOP LYING TO ME ,YOU IDIOT.
WHAT MORE HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING UH?

WHAT ELSE MORE?

YOU HAVE A FAMILY.!

That is why human being is like this.

2009-09-30T19:10:00.000-07:00

there's a distinctions in everyone life style.
why do people lie?
they lied because of afraid.
but they would surely know they can't resist the kind of image their looking.
they can't even endure,they know one day just one day,
that lie could be expose,anywhere ,anytime any minute.
some denied.

A single lie could relay on someone whom you know.
probably,your other half.

not everyone is perfect,not a single one.
things already had happen,let it be.
dont think back anymore,it's the past.
a very long time ago nightmare.
we should face the problems but not to resist and endure.

for the sake to one of those,you sacrifice.
reason,because you loves them.

invariably,is everyone face it before.
always happening to be true.
no body's right no body's wrong,if you were to complain things are bad ahead two person,
both would be in the wrong.

relationship,they quarrel,but maintain love like.
but why do they still break?
this, you ask yourself,why.
in every couples,there's a gap between them.
either you or me to give in. that's a choice.
we do have past,really bad past.
and the one who's hurt,has to continue the journal of the life and face it upon itself.
can't take it? why not stop and end.

everyone is notable in actions,but why do they still failed.?
different people has different thinking and thoughts.

everyone human being is to be naive.
they want to be but they can't.
unless achieve and target goals.

malice,everyone does feeling of hatred for some one else.
why? perhaps,maybe they did wrong.
they did it wrong which you didn't expect them to.

everyone has a dream,has a chance,has a choice.
everyone wants to ask why is this happening to be youself.
no one knows,but heaven does.

Advice is to think back for him first then think back for yourself.
and ask yourself why is this happening.

*retribution*

2009-09-28T23:00:00.000-07:00

i really love you,i really do.
but i'm still thinking you're hiding me something.

stop everything!

2009-09-28T10:28:00.000-07:00

stop shouting at me.
stop scolding me.
stop blaming me.
stop that lying.
stop being such a burden to me.

whatever i say you would just shout at me.
whatever i do,you scolds me.
whatever i does nothing wrong,you blame me.
whatever it takes you to promise you lie.
you've been asking break up for 2 time.
you goes pup without me.
all you said all you do all you promise me..
you burn it down.
i'm just nothing to you.

since you wanted to break so much,so why not?
even i have fever i still wait..
you say i cant wait,then go sleep.
what's wrong with you now?
issit me or issit you?
what is this,what is going on??
i really dont know,i dont even know everything when ppl keep asking me,
about you.
i thought i really understand you,but i'm not.
things change,and why?
i want to know,but the world does'nt let me know.
you keep throwing temper whenever i ask you something.
you scolds and shout at me through yesterday and today.
i not sure are you going to let go or are you going to let me stay.
i thinks you hate me...i think i dont even know what;s really going on..
you want break ,thn go ahead..
you've been asking that for 2 days alrd..
finally?? or what?

let me rest..please.

someone always be there for me.

2009-09-26T16:40:00.000-07:00

NIGEL LIM,you're such a great guy.
when ever i need you,you would be there.
when ever i need your help,you will be the first.
when ever i need cash urgently, you tried your best to gave me.
i know you're trustworthy, unlike some guy!
you never quarrel with me,when i treat you badly.

you're the one that i can really share my feelings.
i don't know how much i've to thank you.
i don't know why i didn't know you at the first place.
but i'm glad to know you.

thanks for everything NIGEL. ><

he's the one who always by my side no matter what happens.

i've never know why.

2009-09-26T16:23:00.000-07:00

i think you change.
i think you dont love me anymore.
i think you've an affair.
you shout at me cos i woke you up.
you said i noisy.
i wanna go with you but you said no.
you said *why i must bring you go, you go for what?.
you wants a break up long ago ain't you?
i did nothing wrong to make you damn angry.
you angry cos you wait for me? what's wrong with waiting?
like i never wait for you like that.

He say, you can choose not to wait,you wait for what,you can go sleep de ma.
He say me noisy becos i woke him up 3times.*ya la ya la wake up arld la!!!*
he say, what?? not happy dont be together la,break la.
he thinks i'm annoying.
all he knew was,i'm a cry baby.
he says im important.
but i'm just nothing to him,not even a shit.
he cried and beg me stay.
but all i knew is, it was just a dream.
i think he's cheating on me.

i will be as cold as the ice from now on.
since he say im noisy why not i stop talking unless he talks to me?
i've been such a ridiculous, why do i have such a boyf?
even if i cry, he would play his WOW instead of comforting me.
oh gosh, i made a wrong choice this time.
my worst life i've seen.

why not i would just pack my things and go off?
and i will say...oh, bitch why not we break, you idiot.
you're NOT that nice to me okay?!
who you think you are?!
a hairy cock? a sweaty leg ? a farting gay? so white for what?
you're getting pathetic, you're some kind of asshole in my ass.

2009-09-07T03:56:00.000-07:00

the questions!

2009-09-07T03:50:00.000-07:00

1) Single, Taken, or Crushing?
- Taken.

2) Are you happy with where you are?
- totally happy.

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
- uh??

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Obviously -.-!

5) Do you believe that there are
certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
- depends?

6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
- Definately not!

7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
- sure,i would talk about it.

8) Do you want children?
- perhaps.

9) How many?
- 2.

10) Would you consider adoption?
- if i cant have babies.

11) If somebody liked you right now, what will you do?
- reject? i've a hubby alrd.

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
- Sometimes.

13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating?
- Game? Wht game?

14) Do you believe love at first sight exists?
- Somehow.

15) Are you romantic?
- hmmm...maybe?

16) Do you believe that you can change someone?
- if he do it for my sake.?

17) If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?
- er, not sure?

18) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
- Obviously.

19) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you couldn't?
- Yeaps..

20) Have you ever broken a heart?
- everyone does.

21) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
- Depends.

22)What would you say about your last ex?
- Full of nonsense -.-!

we can never let go.

2009-09-05T23:39:00.001-07:00

OMG!!! it can't be.! i thought i was strong enough but i guess,
i'm not..i wanted to go but i see you cried so badly,my hearts hurts.
really hurts,i can't bear to leave you and that's the reason.
oh my tian......how??? maybe, just maybe,i shall stay.
i hope you didn't cry so jia lat. but everytime you cry i can feel you still love me.
but now,not to worry. partly is my fault too,i shouldn't gave my num. well,i'm sorry.
and i prefered you'll hold me tight..as tight as you can. :D
i feel warm when you hug me,i feel loved.

*[to casandra]
maybe just one last chance..-.-
i know i'm weak to leave. but i'm just need him to be on my side.
hehehe....

we can never let go.

2009-09-05T23:39:00.000-07:00

i think we're getting bad to worse.

2009-09-04T04:05:00.001-07:00

i think we are not meant to be.
we are getting even further.
getting hard to communicate..we don't understand each other.
we're near but i finally realize that we're too far away.
all those words you say, you shouldn't say it.
not a single day we did not quarrel. we quarrel everyday.
everyone was right..we should break up..
i choose the wrong decision to be with you..
since then ,you treated me like a doll.
you'll never know about me,you make your decision without thinking.
whats your sorry for??
you let me wait, you make me cry , you make me think negative ,you make me lost of sight.
we went through this far,but to you,it was nothing.
you are way too selfish. i'll have to listen to what you say.
but you'll never listen what i say. you know how much pain you gave me?
what did i do to deserves this? everyone says i shall break.
but i cant never thinking of that. actually my thinking was wrong.. we should not be together
since we can't give in,can't understand each other,can't give a warm feeling,can't think for each other.
i'm sorry i can't continue a relationship with you anymore.
i would die being with you.
you are torturing me ,you'll never knows how i feel deep in my heart.
i'm utterly confuse.you'll never know how much i wanted to say you,you'll never know how much i wanted
you to feel me.you'll never know how much i've tried.you'll never knew how much i wanted to cry and scold you.
all this months..you let me suffer pain..a very sore pain.
i can never have a chance to be the number 1 in your heart..it'll never be.

i think we're getting bad to worse.

2009-09-04T04:05:00.000-07:00

2009-09-03T21:17:00.000-07:00

A - Age: 15
B - BIRTHDAY: 26 jan
C - CRUSHING ON: none
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: HL milk
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: loads
F - FAVOURITE SONGS: those that is meaningful
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: both
H - HOME TOWN: Singapore.
I - IN LOVE WITH: CHEN WEIKANG!.
J - JOB: intended to find one
K - KISS SOMEONE: not someone,but hubby.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: when im lost.
M - Month of birth: january
N - Nicknames: sotongs , rainbow , fluffy , ah fe and the short and cute one.-.-
O - ONE WISH: c.w.k. love for me would nvr change
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: i forgot. i've bad term memories.
Q - Quiet person: only when i'm utterly alone and sad.
R - REASON TO SMILE: over a small things,like ..darling farted.-.-
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: thousands miles.
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 9 plus plus.
U - Urgent thing on your to do list: none
V - VEGETABLE(S): broccoli.
W - Wishing for: we'll get married and had a family.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: nope.
Y – Yummy food you make: only i could find things to cook.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Aquarius.

i miss the past we use to be.

2009-09-03T20:43:00.000-07:00

i have many things to say,yet i've no ideal how i'm i going to start. ):
sometimes i wish that dar could understand me.
i wish that ,i am the only one to him.
i wish that,i'm utterly important to him,more than *agreement .
i wish that,when ever i feeling down he would be there.
i wish that,everytime i cried,he'll comfort me.
i wish that,i didn't had the sad and miserable memories.
i hope that,i could be strong enough to fight through it.
i hope that the mirror i see in,it wasn't me.
i hope that,he will see through me.
i hope that,everything comes bad is to be a dream.

hubby,
i've tried very hard to suits you.
i'm tired of getting too pathetic people might think.
i'm tired trying & trying but i gain nothing through these all.
do i still stand a place in your heart? i don't wanna lose my number1 positions.
am i really lost to the agreement?
if i'm really that bad,please tell me..recently,i get not to understand who i am to you.
don't let drown in the tears i cried.
i wonders if there's a hole in my bloody hell heart. i felt the urge pain.-.-

woooooooooo lala~

2009-08-25T20:32:00.000-07:00

yesterday quarrel again ):
but it's fine now.. :D
heh heh heh.!!!

dar, i didn't mean to hurt you by saying those lies.
is just that i want you to come back to see something..
really, iloveyou to the core alright? :D
&& i will be with you till death separated us..
i mean even death can't separated us (: hehe.
dar.....why every time we say one last chance,but we
keep on remain the same spot together? -.-
weird,okays,i'm real sorry for yesterday kay??
i only need you in my life ,that's it (:

so forget the unhappiness,
but remember the fun times we had.

ILOVE CHEN WEIKANG TO THE MAX.!!!
MUACKS.!! :D

c.weikang's

to darling(:

2009-08-24T22:17:00.000-07:00

dar, i've tried to control my anger.
i get angry and sad easily. once i sad i would cry.
you know de, yet you wont come to hong me.
so, who am i to you this days? i kept thinking negative.
i guess you forgotten my birthday.
suan le..if you're behaving like you dont care me, abit only angry and if you LIED to me.!
i will surely leave. i'm serious.you read it.!

but i can tell you that,i'm not that happy being with you recently.
and i'm very sensitive ,see that?? * sensitive*
so mind your every single steps and words.

sad combine depressed):

2009-08-24T22:02:00.000-07:00

okays,blogger is real sucks,seriously-.-

okok,yesterday night to mid quarrel with darling):
due to i really is accidentally slapped his face hard..
it was real stunning.o.o and i did tried to calm him down,but he push hard away.):
sad,so i asked him whether he wants to see me or or not,but he refuse to reply my question.
so i went out by myself,walk there walk here,suddenly i don't know where i am,so decided to,
take a sit and relax. so,called casandra ,thanks god she ans the phone. so we chated.
after taking a sit,i manage to walk like a cripple leg.-.- muscle pull):
after that..walk there and here.i told casandra i was about to go back alrd .so awhile later she hang up.
after that message darling it was about 11.52 i think,he really dont care me ): he says,
it's your choice ,you choose to went out even i had stopped you.
and then was about to reach darling house message him and ask him to bring down my clothes,he replied
*you want you ownself come up take. so called him but he hang up.
so i went to his house he open the door for me.
pack my things,but cried behind the table.he off the light close the door,and than came after me.
he said dont be like that la...then i keep on straggle to remove his hand over my shoulder.
he pull me up-.- so i walk to the bed and sit down.
then both lay down..he hugged me to sleep.but i refuse it.i said
tomorrow i'm leaving ,i dont wish to be with you,and he said,so this is what you want la.*he cried*
i spoke the wrong things out,i really dont mean it btw! so i hug him and he say dont hug me from now on you walk yours i walk mine.
but i say i wont leave ,but he cried and say i dont wish to lose you de, you think for yourself but not others,
i'm afraid i might really lose you. so i again hug him,dar,i wont leave i love okay..guai dont cry..
thn blah blah blah blah blah,everything was back to normal liao.):

drama lei..but it's real

2009-08-12T01:28:00.000-07:00

DARLING,YOU'RE NOT TRUSTWORTHY ENOUGH.
I'M SORRY *IF* I LEFT YOU.
YOU WOULD'NT BE THERE WHEN I NEED YOU, OH NO, YOU WOULD'NT BE..
YOU'LL NVR BE THE SAME LIKE THE PAST..

YOU'RE NOT TRUSTWORTHY ENOUGH.

2009-08-12T01:12:00.000-07:00

I WISH,EVERYTHING GONE BACK TO THE PAST..
LIKE I NVR KNOW-ED YOU BEFORE.
LOVING YOU IS JUST HURTING MYSELF.
I KEPT HOLD MY TRUST IN YOU,ALL MY TRUST.
BUT YOU TURN IT AWAY AND LIE TO ME AGAIN.
HOW COULD I'VE BEEN SO SILLY.
I'M SAD,I'M DEPRESSED,I CRIED OVER THIS MANY TIMES.
TO SAVE UP MY TEARS,MY SORE-NESS..
WHY NOT TREAT ME BETTER.?
WHY NOT STOP THAT LIE?
WHY NOT YOU THINK FOR ME?
OR WHY NOT YOU JUST LET ME Go?
I'M SAD.TOO UPSET THAT I DROP ON THE GROUND WITH NO UPHOLD.
WE'RE GETTING FURTHER..GETTING HARD TO COMMUNICATE.
MAYBE WEREN'T MEANT TO BE TOGETHER..
IT'S JUST MY IMAGINATION.
WHY AM I SO STRESS?
I'M FEELING THAT I'M GOING TO PASS ANYTIME ANYWHERE..
SOMETHING IS SMALL CIRCLE AND LOOKS LIKE CANDY.
OR MAYBE,SOMETHING LONG AND POINT UPWARDS IN A SHARP POINT..IN A SILVER COLOR
WHAT IF IT'S POKE THROUGH MY DEEPEST HEART?? HOW WOULD IT FEEL?
WOULD THERE BE SCREAM OR A SILENCE NIGHT?WOULD IT BLEED?
I'M SAD,I'M CONFUSED,I'M SO DEPRESSED AND I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO..
SOBBING* WHY AM I LIKE THIS??

MIA FOR A FEW DAYS,WEEKS,MONTH OR YEAR.

2009-08-02T23:19:00.000-07:00

2009-08-02T22:16:00.000-07:00

i'ts has been so long that i didn't came to post,due to i'm sick.
heh...

BLOGGER HAS SOMETHING WRONG.

2009-07-27T20:55:00.000-07:00

anyway, i have very big problem.
YUYING SEC SCHOOL is real sucks ,do you see that?
i'm typing rumors about this school you know?

which school does not let student to quit school?
AND WHAT THE FUCK DOES THE HOD WANTS?

come on, get some life man, HOD GOING TO JUVENILE COURT REPORT MY BOYF?
get me a probation? are this treatening or what?
i'm gonna spread all around.

school are just bull shitting.

report my boyf fer what?
and HELLO!, is mine problem or your problem? i wanna quit school is my house problem.
why cant i quit, fucker.

if the school wants my parents to waste money for letting me go back and get havoc learn nothing,
than THE SCHOOL ARE CRUEL.

please stop that juvenile court, are the school jealous i had a boyf?
fucking mother bitch.

if there's things called cant quit school,why do so much student quit.
NERDY,this cannot that cannot.
WHAT THE HELL FUCKING THE SCHOOL WANT?

na bei, i nvr go school call me up, i go school ,send me home.
you think i very much time to play uh?
PCB.

i'm gonna sue this fucking lan jiao school.
i'm gonna complain everything the school does.

just let us be ,OKAY?!?!

JUVENILE COURT!? HAHAH, DONT MAKE ME LAUGH MAN.

2009-07-23T22:34:00.000-07:00

omg, do you know what last week??

on that day i was with my boyf, and he say he would bought my some sweet drinks and asked me to wait for him outside the seven-11 store.

and also which is near to the police station.

and the *q* is very long,so my boyf will have to wait till his turn.

a minute later, one malay police,one chinese,one idian and one ang moh police came after me.

they took me to the police station and ask me , girl ah, do you know why are you here with us?

oh jesus, obviously i dont know right?
so i ans them , oh mixing cops, how would i know i would be here ith you guys?

and those crap cops passes me a piece of paper, and it's says ..

fine $1000000.
bail $1000000.

fuck their ass man,
i would i be fined??

i was so kind and gentle, even i've to let the ant's grab thier food and went in their ant's holes.

i had even sings to the house fly in my dust bin.

and i finally know why.
i've forgotten to read below it.

it says that,

fine: for causing too many too much guys to faint as well as lady's.

bail: for causing all shops give everything in thier store to me. and even money$$.

thats why?
even those mixed cops are letting me off by killing.

woo hoo!!

The Words You Said.

2009-07-14T22:39:00.000-07:00

i was feeling so love-less.
seriosly, i dont.
maybe it was just a feeling,i hope that *B words you say was just a childish dream.
but, i know it's not.
but i have to got to be strong.
i have to, really.
i've learn somthing new already.
guess what?, i'll learn that how you treat me and i'll be the same ,too.
fair and sqare.

i'm not sure are you reading my blog.
but what i could say is, i spend my everything just because of you.
do you know what i've actually been doing?
nope,you did not know.
you dont even know how i feel.

no mood to continue..

2009-07-11T05:22:00.000-07:00

FUCKING STRESS.
FUCKING TIRED OF THIS.
FUCKING HATE THIS KIND OF FEELINGS.!
SHOULD I OR SHOULD NOT.?
CAN I SAY *GOOD GAME*?

NEED AN ANSWER, YES OR NO?
SHOULD OR SHOULD NOT?
CAN OR CANNOT?
EXHAUSTED! FREAKING HATE YOU LA BITCH!

Something is wrong with my relationship.

2009-07-11T04:50:00.001-07:00

maybe i just too useless in this realationship, maybe i just dont know how to love.
or maybe perhaps i know nothing about love.
indeed that i've change to worse, and it's because i dont want to think and
get stress about it ,i play tough , i talk rough and my attitude came back.
how i wish that he didn't exist me. how i wish that i can be playful at times.
i can do what ever i want.! i can say what ever i wanna say , i can wear what i like or maybe i can doll myself.
i never expect him to say that i cut my hair was ugly.!
to me and to everyone say that i look much cuter than i've been.
why does he shout at me because of a girl that i say her fat and where does she look like me?
i really dont know what i've done.
i really very tired of this already.
i dont know what i could do.
i can't bear to leave you , is that called love?
i really dont know why we every time, everyday must kept on quarrel over such small things.
i'm his girlf and he say my hair look so sucky.
oh gosh ! , this time round i would'nt have know you in the first place.
i would'nt believe what and why i could have this knid of relationship.
indeed he's really treating me well ,and would obey me at times.
i have so much thing to say ,but who's gonna lend me a listening ear??

i never felt so much love before.
why i'm i so useless?
how can i let you stay with me?
stop forcing me already..i really dont like the way you attitude me.
i really very tired of getting accuse, i really want to shout and cry out loud and hard if i could.!
why does you treat me this way?
why does you have to quarrel with me?
i just want a simple love..it's hurt god damn much , it's painful of living in this nightmares.
why does things came out this way?
why does love do it this way?
i'm trying to resist and endure whatever i could already.
i'm tired of this, really.

2009-07-05T20:00:00.000-07:00

long time nv post.=.=
bi has gone to work till 6 plus than end.
i at his house using com(:
nicole is eating,three girls in the house..
later will have to go down buy my food.(: maybe bringing nicole down.

anyway, do the world change?
does ppl change?
why?

why can't remain as usual the way we does.?
or, does we really have to change the way we use to be?
hmmm....?

have got to think back.
thinking in process.
bye.(:

2009-06-29T20:50:00.000-07:00

DAR KEEP NEVER REPLY.!!!!!!!!
SOMETHING IS WRONG.

FUCKYOU LA.! _|_

IN SCHOOLLLLL :D

2009-06-28T20:11:00.000-07:00

was in school ,in da com lap. (: zzz..hubby kept playing com,thats why
is hard to use his com to post. ):

i miss him.):

okay,got to study now, bye.(:

IMMA LAZY BUM(:

2009-06-23T21:37:00.001-07:00

TOO LAZY TO POST.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PSPS(:

2009-06-22T23:57:00.000-07:00

I♥YOU

20.02.09 || 12.24 AM

2009-06-22T23:51:00.000-07:00

IMISS CHEN WEIKANG!!!!!!!!!!!!
IMISSYOU
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ILOVEYOU
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MUACKS.!!!!!!!!!!!!

DARLING,LASTLONG WITH ME!!!!!!!
GET WELL SOON.!!!!!
GET WELL SOON
GET WELL SOON
ALRIGHT?!?!?!

LOVESYOU.

I KNOW HOW TO TREASURE YOU NOW.

2009-06-22T23:18:00.000-07:00

HOME SWEET HOME(:
yesterday at huuby house was so sian! so i went home myself without him send me.
yeap,no tears running down from me eye to cheeks. (:
had a little quarrel yesterday, but it's fine now.

i know how to treat you in a best way already,
i've made up my mind.
for you, i'm willling to give in everything yea ,everything.
no matter who's fault ,i will open my mouth and say sorry.
i know what i'm doing.
for the both of us, i'm willing to do that.
to show you how much i love ,this is what i can do.
i might be silly but honey,
what ever you do behind me, i will not want to know.
i just wanna be silly loving you.
baby, you'll never see my tears anymore.
not anymore.
i will not show my temper anymore.
iloveyouboy.

from now on,i must be brave.

if loving you is a wrong,
i would rather be fully wrong by,
loving you in the wrong place.

to show you my love, i give in.

Never The Same You.

2009-06-22T00:08:00.000-07:00

dar today very angry with me. :C
i play food, and drink green tea and it's cold.
i'm having my period that's why.
he did'nt intend to come home when i really need his care.
he sent me to his house and he left me.
due to i'm sick.

dar, you said, said when i need you,
you'd be there for me.
but,i really needed ,needed you to be here,
you were not around.
you'd never know,know that i really wish you could hug me tightly,
infront of many ppl and said, i forgiven you.
i really wish to see you,yet you are not home.
you never know how much i wanted to cry out loud,scream my heart out.
why are you like this?? why you could'nt just because of me and come home??
am i not that so important??
are you're games important than me??
tell me where can i lean,tell me how much you loved me,tell me i belongs to who and tell me
am i really super duper important or just a shit.?
tell me the truth honey.
Do You Even Care,Love,Think Or Dote Me?

A Heart Broken Day.

2009-06-18T23:51:00.000-07:00

today super bored. ._.
i also don't know why..but luckily nicole pei me all the time.
that idiot only eye-ing on the com screen,you see.(:
haha,love nicole. now he's going down alone by himself.
someone got problem. *also not his.* (:
okay, nicole kept playing water. -.-
play until whole floor wet wet, and i played with her hide-and-seek ><
okay,i know that's lame.as for i'm being so childish la. :P
you know there's thing called* ren sheng jiu shi zhe yang de sheng huo cai kai xin .*
both monkey are naughty.
like father like daughter? :P

okay i shall stop posting already,big monkey is watching o.o
oh my, that c.wk. :P ><

BYE, B.I.T.C.H ?

2009-06-18T08:48:00.000-07:00

bored bored bored,again..tomorrow dar woke up ..smoke than on com liao.
zzzzzzzz!!!!!!! hate this...

anw, hubby back pain,so went down to 7-eleven to buy his fav drinks,
and *salonpas* for his backache ..went down with nicole.
his cute little daughter.
hubby is still coughing, AND!! he's still smoking. fuck_|_ he does'nt listen to what i said.
heart break. :C he's sucks all the time. but he's still cute? haha.
anw, monday dar will be leaving me for one week.. :c saddening..
had to find programme lohs .!! he's gonna be mad at me. :P

DAR,GET WELL SOON ALRIGHT? (:
don't smoke all the time, i'm watching your health.
be aware of all kind of things by now.
don't wanna let something happen to you.
YOU.!! DRINK MORE WATER!! :3

anw,iloveyou.(:

2009-06-17T06:02:00.000-07:00

HELLO.!!!!!!!!!! I'M BACK.!!!!
haha..
now at hubby house,and he's going to amk for the urine test.
should be home at 10 plus . anw , i've nothing to talk about.

cos there's nothing i can say . LOL? =.=

okay ,waiting for hubby to come home.
SO, bye.

i'm gonna miss someone like hell.

2009-06-12T07:09:00.000-07:00

alright,i'm gonna miss someone like shit hell,though it was just only for 4 days.
but to me is a long journey.!! ):
dar must be missing me :P haha..only my sense ba.
i'm going to tanjung balai,there was when i'm small,ah ma brought me there.
hais....years has past so fast,and i'm 15 already.
had a sweet sweet boyfriend.
soon will have * jia ting * already..
pretty fast eh?
thats life anw,tomorrow i will be seating on a 6pm boat to there.
maybe two hours plus will reach ba..

i hope hubby dont get sick.
he's coughing and had a flu.
dar,drink more water uh,dont sleep too late .
and! stop playing your stupid mafia.!! zzzz..
spend more time with that than me ):
sob.!

okays ,it's reatarded i know.
anw.thats what i am.

OKAY,HUBBY!!!!!!
GET PRETTY WELL SOON ALRIGHT.!!??!?!
ILOVEYOU.!

2009-06-11T05:38:00.000-07:00

VERY BORING..
waiting for hubby to come home.
it's late, 11 will be home he said.
how i wish him to come home fast enough.
really missing him.hais..
3 and half more hours to go..

dar,where are you?
i'm missing you badly right now.wish to see you,
before i leave singapore .
could you please be quick enough to reach home?
i'm suffering to miss someone so badly today.
hais....please ............!!!!!

alright,i've been wanting hubby to come home now..
but in that case,i will get scolding when he reached home.
i would'nt know he father would complain to him that i had not been eating from morning.
but than,maybe uncle was worried so he ask their maid to cook fried rice for me.
kind isn't? ,anw i had my reason you know,i had an ulcer from my upper lip.
and it's hurts so much much.
i dont even dare to open my mouth nor just smile.
if i smile ,my teeth would brush the ulcer.):
as the same goes to open my mouth.
hubby scold me through sms
.
wk: why you whole day nv drink or eat?

me: just eaten.

wk: sure? my father call me and complain and make noise u know ma?

*than i tell him bout my ulcer things,
dont dare to open mouth all this thingy.

wk: you must drink water ma.. u always nv drink sure
have ulcer wad.

isn't he's sweet enough to be my bf?
alright,he's kinda caring person.
ONLY SOMETIMES.

oh well,gtg now. going to hubby face book.
(:

god damn ulcer sure it's hurts my lips.!!
argghh..

A HORRIBLE DAY.

2009-06-08T06:45:00.000-07:00

anw someone is acting so god damn pathetic today.
and it's really very sucky.

was at hubby house now..soon i'm going home(:
home sweet home.(: will be going to tanjung balai from 14 june.(:
not sure when coming back..hope can stay there more longer.

it's reaching 10.miss daddy much.
have been staying at hubby house for 6 days.
sometimes happy,only sometimes.
like he say,life's is full of up and down,you see.
treasure the time before it's too late to say hi again. =.=
maybe?

gtg now,he's going on a fire trip..
and it's going to burst.
i go * hong * him

see ya bitch. _l_

L.OVES,
myself the day

2009-06-03T21:15:00.000-07:00

hey , i'm in hubby house.(:
going out to sunplaza soon,meeting his best mate,yu ming.
going to eat lunch outside. must eat full full eat till drop.
haha..waiting for dar to get ready..and he's still talking to his brother ..zzz..
okay...anw..i've nothing to say now haha..so,gtg .(:

takecares.

C.weikang's FEL

2009-06-02T07:51:00.000-07:00

things chage fast.
hubby can you think for my feeling?
can you speak through your mind?
we're always had a combating. anytime we will have the chance of breaking.
be serious in this relationship can?
everytime i went to your house ,you spent more time with your com games than me.
morning till afternoon till night ..the next morning still the same.
if not go sun plaza arcade with yu ming they all play K.O.F than i could only just sit beside watch you playing.
if i go find darren they all,you'll get jealous and angry.
all i could only do is just keep quiet. the momment i ask you thing, you would say i nag nag nag.
i was lucky to have nicole pei me..but i also need your time with me de right?
sometimes i wish that there's no one else but only me and you. but how?
how can we last long if you carry on like this? not a single day you've made me happy.
all you could do is just saying * sorry la, sayang sayang.
even those girl i wanted to talk to..you also dont let.
are you constraining me? you limit my freedom.

i need your time,i just need you to be with me.
i dont want to be bored being with you.
you've change, can you be more serious in me?
can we stop the quarrel between us?

2009-05-28T20:35:00.000-07:00

currently was at hubby house.(: till sunday night. mamybe??
haha,well my blog is dead..sorry..i don't have a interesting life,but i indeed had a lovely boyfriend of mine. (:perhaps he's my everything. i'm having my period over last few days, and my stomach hurts me like hell..he knew it ,cause i was at his house..so he ask his maid to pour me a cup of hot plain water to endure my pain.(: such a caring boyf uh.? yeap he is. && i love him much much.(:
shhhh..he;s beside me. so gtg now. bye

L.OVES
F.ELICIA<3

2009-05-21T05:12:00.001-07:00

WTF.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FAILED MY MATHEMATICS.!!!
AHHHHH.!!!!!!!!!!!
okays...anw,all along my math would faild.
so who cares?? not even me .. 0.0 (:

zzz.................sorry no tag board..
cos many fucking irritating ppls are spamming..
maybe they no brain to think thats why go for spamming..
(:

2009-05-10T17:06:00.000-07:00

yeap,currently at hubby house.
he has gone to work this morning about 7 plus.(:
i'll have to wait for him at his house.....................long eh..
about 7 or 8 plus he'll return home.late~

i just wish to stay with him forever.zzzz....
sian, never mind nicole will pei me btw..
tired...i woke up so early...noting to do,but finding something to do.
bored._. i need hubby.)): sob.
okay ba..nothing to write about it le.
so...see ya.(:

2009-05-06T18:15:00.000-07:00

tomorrow night meeting hubby..

and this sunday is his birthday(: 10 may.

thinking how to help him celebrate.. o.o

anw,i'm the first girlf that celebrate his b'day.(:

i plan to go e-hub with him and his friends.(:

what to buy for him?? )): zzz...

see got what things to buy than i buy..i'm going tampinese,

with my cousin. going tm1,well i'm looking for hubby birthday present.(:

hubby,iloveyou.(:

haha..

bi~i buying cake you know??

dont shy shy la...dont get touched by me than tears drop :P

anw, i know you wont haha.!!

hubby hubby hubby hubby.!!!!!!!

*HUGS!!*

F.ELICIA

L.oves

W.EIKANG

2009-04-23T21:05:00.001-07:00

one more day left going to hubby house.(:
must remember to bring nicole's birthday present. :D
hubby will wait for me at the taxi stand and fetch me to his houseee.. (:
celebrating.

hubby,dont fear to lose me, i will be with you till the end.

you got to remember our promises, it wont be a broken promiss.

iloveyou,thats all.(: cheer up.

i will be right there for you. i will stand by you.

so,not to worry.(:

loves.

(♥)20-02-09

2009-04-23T02:57:00.000-07:00

i miss hubby.)):

long time did'nt post..
reason is lay on my com(: haha..

hubby,

i promiss you i wont be too over react.

i wont be hanging around with those friends.

i wont be stealing things outside.

and i also promiss you ,

i will be a good girlf of yours and i wil change my bad attitude.

trust me.(:

iloveyou for my whole life.

i miss CHEN WEIKANG !!!!!!

2009-04-06T08:36:00.000-07:00

I'm missing CHEN WEI KANG.!!

)': sob sob..

today never went to school reason ,i'm feeling drowsy..

everythime when i just woke up..pa pa say that i got low blood presure thats why.

so i not sure yet ): must go see doctor.

hmmm.....i've nothing to say now..

so i shall stop here..(:

need to sleep early today, cos tomorrow need go school.!!

i bet my girls will miss me..and wei kiaw will be sad that i cant meet her today haha.!!

okay,gtg now.(:

byebye :D:D

Loves,

F.ELICIA♥

2009-04-04T00:00:00.000-07:00

later meeting hubby,have to wait for him to sia ban(:
i'll have to take cab down to find him afterwards. i'm lazy):
boo hoo.T.T i want him to come over haha.!!
well see how my luck goes to ba.(: everytime he look for me,maybe this time i'll ave to find him.
the problem is,i'm just too lazy to walk. but i miss him..decision is so hard to make.
nevermind i need to see how it goes.(:

i hope todays thing wont goes wrong, o.o
i wanna give him a hug.:P

I.M.I.S.S.Y.O.U.W.K.

loves,

F.ELICIA♥

2009-04-03T22:17:00.000-07:00

heyo.!! did'nt post for a long time.
haha..

bored.
okays..i wanted to go genting with classmates badly.
i wanted to go hk with girlf badly.
i wanna go japan with szemin badly.
hope my wishes came true this time round.

yesterday went to celebrate adler birthday at amk hub.(:
qing yun ,me and szemin went to bought clothes for adler at SPADE.
omg,it was so vexed choosing guys clothes la..hmm..it was so ex..(:
after that went to watch movie. " 12 round "
nice.(:
than went to buy shushi..finding my cheese shushi,and i found it.yay.!! so cheap
afterwards went to the old old amk to play arcade.
after that i bought drinka and pop corn (:
shared with szemin my beloved.
than,took bus home. and say byebye,
walk back with szemin.hahaha..

today is adler b'day.

ADLER CHUA.!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY(:
well, wish you all the best in evertything you do.(:

loves,

F.ELICIA

2009-03-29T20:57:00.000-07:00

Love me hate me

Say what you want about me

But all of the boys and all of the girls are beggin' to F.U.C.K Me

Love me hate me

But can't you see what I see

All of the boys and all of the girls are beggin' to F.U.C.K Me

it has been a long ime for not posting .

oppsy,haha..today pon school :x heck care ..zz..

bored..i've been harldy to touch my com T.T

saddening eh??

okok la.. keep going out thats why.

claudia,although i'm not a friend of yours,but i still hope

you will rest in peace. loves.(:

be the best claudia.

alright,i will stop my post here.(:

nothing much more to say.

WOOTS.!

2009-03-25T04:29:00.000-07:00

Oops.!!

i have not been posting for a long long time.

miss my post? nahh... (:

busy during the schools days,it was so fuck up.!

the school was soooo like contraint us la.!!

zzz..limit our freedom. _l_

it was like wtf can..attire check,zzz..can you just give me peace?!

amrit.! plus the ball head, our principle.zzz..

many teachers are so LUDICROUS.!

hey!, we need freerein alright.

could'nt they just b allerviated.?! hais..

keep saying we weare so wayward._l_

agree??

please la,dm only,priciple ony,teachers only..you all are just a layman out there.

nothing special what.

is that really warrented to attire check?

as long as we came school right? what more do you all want?

fuck!

so fucking insurmountable.!

teachers keep bemoaning .

parents keep pinning us up.

we just a scapegoats can.!

zzz..alright i will just stop my posting now.(:

szemin! happy to see those chim words now?

haha.! dont smile smile eh.(:

take care.!LOVES

F.ELICIA

2009-03-13T09:38:00.000-07:00

i think it's gonna end soon.(:

2009-03-12T19:43:00.000-07:00

today never went to school,cos..tio suspended =.=
only for two days uh.fuck!
blame MR ONG! fucker teacher..hate him so much!
i was sleeping during his lessons( mother tougue).
then he keep shouting like a mad dog can..then i was damn angry..i shouted him the cb word.
then he go complain mdm amrit.nb,please la,alot ppl scold also only i tio.

after a few minutes,mdm amrit came to my class.than she called me and lorenzo
to her office. she ask lorenz wait for her outside.
ask me in.-.- she ask me why i scold teacher.

and she see my message all this,then she ask me who is the * hubby* refers to.
i say my, boyf la still got who. then i know she wanted to ask how old is he.
then i say no need to ask la,is 22.
-.- ass lor..bo manners eh..read ppl personal item.cb..
call my parents say i've gone became bad girl already.

then ask my brother come down,she tell him everything lor.!!
even my boyf thingy sia,she si bei bu zi liang li can.!
she even tell him my resaults for mathematics.! pcb..

then ask my brother sign the paer than he can take me home le.
hais.!!!!!! ass.!! then he ask me whi i cant study in school.
i say cos i hardly study becos of friends keep disturb me.
after that he ask me to call all the person that bully me or what ever shit to come down to have a talk.
i say dont want..he say you dont want you belive i go your school find them out not.
then i cry cry cry cry cry i say out lor.=.=

hais. ._.

now cant even use hand phone.
no hand phone how i contact ppl sia.!!
fucker.! hardly contact my friends and my hubby. ):
saddening.

damn angry la.!! fucker..
THAT MR ONG HAI ME TIO SUSPENDED FROM SCHOOL FOR TWO DAYS.
TIO SCOLDED.
BETRAY FRIEND.
CANT CONTACT PPL.!!
NB PCB. ALL YOUR FAULT LA.
ONE CB WORD ONLY MAKE THINGS SO BIG.!!
GO JUMP DOWN DIE LA..

SOME OF MY CLASS MATE SEND FOR CANNING BECOS OF YOUR LAN JIAO LESSON.!
YOU THIS SHIT FACE.4 EYE MONSTER.
EVERYDAY EAT SHIT GROW UP DE.
DONT BE TEACHER LA,BE TOILET CLEANER , CLEAN PPL BUTT ,WASH TOILET BOWL
GO COLLECT CAN DRINKS & GO COLLECT NIGHT SOILED LA.!!

CURSE YOU EVERYDAY NO MONEY BUY FOOD.
BE BEGGARS.! DIE OUTSIDE. HUMPH!!!!!!!!