let it be the past

♥Chen weikang's Felicia(:♥

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Title : on 23 jan.

morning i was having a very high fever.

just because of wanted to see jia hui i woke up 5am in the morning,

and get prepared myself. i was weak but i tried to get strong myself 5 plus cherylene sms

me and say want pon school anot.i ask her clement got go school she say no,dont have.

jia hui told me b4 that if his brothers not going to school he will pon.

so i agreed to pon. cos clement nvr go jia hui should be not going. i'm not too sure yet.

so i ask szemin wanna pon school today with cherylene.? she say cannot.later teacher suspect.cos

last year we also like that then teacher suspect us le.some more last year and this year de form teacher is the same teacher. so i say now i meet you then later say..now i go down le.

hais..sigh..i slowly walk down the stairs and open up the door and walk out from house.

was going to faint. but did'nt i continue walking.when going to reach szemine house there de busstop i sms her that i reach le. so she ask me to wait. i sms jia hui ,i ask him that today he got pon school? he say no. he was going to school.so i sms chertlene that i'm going to school.

cos jia hui going.then she say okay lo go school lo.so me and szemin walk go mrt there wait for qing yun. she came...then walk to bus stop wait for 53 .then 53 came but too many ppl.so did'nt got up.

i cannot make it i sit on the floor.and they ask me i'm i okay anot i say ya.okay..

then i stood up again and ask them wanna take cab to school? *saying that cos i wanna see jia hui.*

then they say anything lo okay..then szemin say stupid thing .she say let's go in the middle and wait.so we went. then53 came we look at szemin and blame her.*was playing only la.*

not real de.

then we walk back to the bus stop and take bus 101 to heartland and walk to school i was like omg..dont wanna let them to be worried so i kept quiet.

reach heart land took bus 115 back to school tmd..traffic jam.-.-

got out from the bus and reached school bell ring.just nice we never late. went to canteen and i saw him.!! haha..he turn and look at us and then turn back.-.-

so art time i was stress dont know what to do.

my head was spinning.very pain sia.so i cried in school.

everyone touch my fore head and say it's getting hotter.go home rest la.why come school.?

i say i dont want.i wanted to see jia hui. i sms him and say where he was,he say he was joining with 3i and 3h art class.yong chin went down to look for hui min.i ask him.did jia hui got in the art room? he say ya.

i was weak but have to rush up from 1st floor to 3rd floor. just because i wanted to see him.

i was shy so i pretend that i'm finding pencil for my friends.haha.. i look at him again and went out and rush down to pass the pencil to my friends.

hui min have performance so she need to go up to c.o room which is the same level as art room.

again i wanted to see him .i followed her up.then went in to art room.but did'nt saw him.i sms him ask him to come back lei.he came .kelvin help him to open the door.

happy can.. :D

then after that he went out again.-.- sad.i put my head down and rest.

then teacher still dont know that i'm having a fever he ask me to go down to colloect the art work and come up fast again.i say nothing ,took my bag and i agreed with the teacher.i went down and went up again.then he ask me to go down again,so i did.i did not argue.but to listen.

so i went down to see what they was doing in class.yun yi and roslyn have done.yun yi say can pei me go up to pass this art work to teacher?

i was about to cry but i did'nt i even till ask her go up 4th floor with me cos i wanted to see jia hui in class.so went up to 4th floor and walk pass his class.tiring.went down to 3rd floor again.pass it to teacher.he ask me and yun yi to go down again.i was nearly NEARLY faint out side the art room.! i pull myself up and went down with yun yi teacher say he will come down to collect.so we waited and waited till the bell rings.he did not came at all.

so we went to search for his exist and we finally found him.then pass it to him i tell him that i did not do my work i'm sorry ,and i'm having a high fever.he ask me i'm i okay?, go sick bay la.i say dont want.bye teacher. i and yun yi did not went for recess although still have a long time.

i have no appetite so she is.only the both of us in class.i saw yong chin out side and went out and ask where's hui min he say at c.o room.

okay..never mind,yong chin ask me : you okay anot?

go home rest la..stupid come school for what.?! i say dont want.

and he knows the reason that i being in school for what.

then i saw jia hui with kelvin they all have no time to care but to went in class.

he walk pass the class and he smile and wave to me.*happy.*

then got up to hall to see the performances.i saw hui min up there.!

when they played finish i tried my very best to shout hui min name.i shouted her name.!

i lost my voice again.i miss her too much althouh we were in the same class.

she ask me did i shout out her name i say yes.she say she was very touch.and say thanks to me.

i ask siti that wanna go toilet? she say ok.so i walk and ask hui min too.

i hug hui min and she was so happy to see me.haha.

after school i went to cherylene class to wait for szemine qing yun they all.

i cant stand much longer.so i kept walking there and here.

saw jia hui they al.but a min later they were gone.i ask adler where's jia hui,he say over there.

and he pop out.-.-

take mrt to serangoon with qing yun cherylene and szemin.
we wanted to go watch movie at plaza sin.then in the hot ans sunny day i walk alone.
damn hot.walk faster and and faster,finally reach home.get change, szemin kept rushing me.
think she forgotten i'm sick.
she ask me to walk faster and so i did, i'm having gastric .but i did'nt care.i walk even faster,getting more pain.
so saw qing yun and szemin with another school girl.
but standard ticket and set off..reach plaza sin.i walk all alone by myself with an psp.
everyone knows that i'm having a gastric.they concern me damn lot.
qing yun say if you dont want eat i later also dont want eat.then later both of us got gastric.
thats what are my sisters-ship is called.
so we went to mos burger.i still dont have the appetite lei.cherylene scolded me say that i must eat. if not she will tell jia hui.so i say i share with her, so she buyed and we share, she know that i was waiting for jia hui to come.
she from beside and say dont need look for him le la,he will come de.
i smiled. :X
so continue,i eat bit by bit.i cant finish it.then i look out side and saw them walking to mos burger .
-.-
then blah blah blah.

SAD PART READ!

qing yun they all went home,

left me and cherylene only.i say i wanted to go serangoon ther de playground.

so she say okay,take mrt to no where else and then

then change mrt,i sms jia hui this.

me:why today like sian sian de.

never talk like that ,not even like a stead lo.

he:dont meant it,somrthing is bothering me.

me: what thing?

he:secret :X

me: say lei.

he:i dont know i like you anot,

i dont know how i feel about you.

me: oh.then whats the use for being stead?

he: if no use then we can't continue le.then break lo

me:...i've nothing to say.

he: let's break ba. be friends.

* i ji tao cry in mrt.*

me: okay.

me again: you mean you dont have the feeling for me anymore?

he: actually have feeling de. but dont know

why dont have le.

i nvr reply.and i pass it to cherylene my phone

and show it the message.

i keep crying non stop.

i reach the station i hold cherylene and face it down and cry.

tears keep dripping,she ask me dont cry le la.

i wish i could but i can't.

i love him damn damn much can.

then i keep crying till i reach the bus stop.

i cry non stop ..

wait for the bus i still crying.

got up to bus 317 everyone was looking at me.

because i was still crying.

more then a hour i kept crying.

till i reach the playground i was still crying.

even more worse. those memories are at there on 21 jan.

i cried even harder.

till i sit the swing i stop crying but emo.

i swing harder to forget everything.

i look at cherylene and i finally smile.

8 plus,this time is cherylene pei me wait for cab le.

in taxi i was alone.i cried..hard to stop.

reach home i slam the door run up to my bedroon lock the door i cried and cried and cried.

1:i was having a high fever,beacuse of wanted to see him i went to school.

climb up and down,cried lots of time.

2:when he was sick i can't meet him,i'm worried bout him the whole day,and i cried

for him.

3:because of i lost my voice,and wanted to talk to him often,

i drink that medicine.

4: wanted to know his birthday i waste my message to ask everyone of them.

5: i went up and down because i was looking for him.

6: wanted to know where was he,i travel along the school to ask those who knows

jia hui.

did i ever does anything wrong?

did i ever exist him?

did he ever love me that way?

did he treat me that way?

what are the days with have been together?

* nothing*

what are my tears for?

*nothing*

what i've done for him is more then other the one i love.

i have never treat someone else like this b4.

tears for you is=i REALLY love you.

weakness to be stronger is =because i trusted you.

i even when back to the day we have fun together.

i cried.

i'm tired.

i canot stop what i'm thinking about.

why?

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.!!

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