let it be the past

♥Chen weikang's Felicia(:♥

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That paper. -.-''
miss him loads.

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Title : Listening Ears.

time past by.

memories still remains.

goshh.!! fuck those irritating tears man.

kept rolling down from my cheeks.

neh mind,i shall need some times to forget.

i need some advice you know?

these days ,has been too pathetic.

i have my retardness to continue my jokes around.

i shall continue my life with full of happiness without him.

yes,thats the way i am.

IF I FORGETS YOU,DONT YOU DARE TO REMEMBER ME.

dont show up yourself infront of me.T.T

might get hurt again and again and again.

so,bye bye love.

i'll miss you dearly this time.(:

gonna be bored again.):

missing someone.but i dont know who i miss.

thinking about someone,who was the person i was thinking about?

hmmmm..pathetic is'nt??

HEHE,*laughs*

so happy cannn...hyper active has came to my life.

imma hyper,funny,caring,happy ,helpful ,good listener,

good student ,mama papa good nu er. :x

love me i'll love you too.(:

hate me,i'll love you more.(:

remember me,i'll try my best to remember you.(:

forget me,yet remember others,i'll say you

BIAS!!

then...

BYEBYE.!!

ILOVEPANGJIAHUI

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god damn miss himmmmm.)):
saddening.sppeechless T.T..

today went to school with szemin,qing yun and and qing yun...
take bus 53.my face got so red..lol..drink wine ma..-.-
then reached school le..went in class....then blah blah blah.
got up to hall and get ready for FRC.
then read read read..then PG.
went to AVA room..(: to have a class chat.
lol..lame eh..
then then went to art.draw .......then teacher say very good not bad..
and blah blah blah.
then recess..went go canteen eat ,eat le then walk go class ..
saw jia hui they all out side my class..zzzz
i dont wanna see the one i like..
i slam the door by purpose.
PAI SEH.dont mean it eh.(:
then math...bite till my lips then bleed alot..
ask for tisues..omg.!!
lame..zzz..
er dont wish to say all this le.
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then after school,went to meet szemin they all.
zzzzzzzzzzzz...
walk alone behind..talk to them they dont wanna ans.
abit du lan.
then keep quiet all the way they came to me.-.-
then went go take bus go szemin housee.
then go pei cherylene to plaza sin.!
got my memories again,so WTF.!
neh mind...resist and endure.(:
go there for reparing phone..!
then go eat....
then cheryl went home, me and szemin took mrt to j8 pei her friend..
then all that..

today gan pua shitty day.!

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yesterday pon school with hui min,just we two nia.
then go buy breezer,4.8% nia..
i ought 2 bottles..drink it and i gone drunk lol.
zzzz.we went to serangoon park there ..playgroung..got my memories de.
lols. then sit swing ...then sleep for 1 hour plus plus..
damn hot la..* the weather.*

sian......hui min say i drunk untill like she dont even know me at all.
i woke up then head damn pain got * ba lu gu.*
tmd.she say i knock my head with a metal pole while i was walking,but i dont know.
-.-
hais..then i cross the road without looking left to right.
was nearly hit by car..lol...
then tio scolded.

then meet cherylene after school.
then go eat ..at hougang..
saw my primary school friend.lols...cute eh..=.=
keep saying i really miss jia hui.
but now...
er......can;t explain my feeling..
slowly fading,but still love him(:
heard that he got stead le.
so ,..what ever it goes i would be living with my own happy world.
i'm not lonely. zzz..

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Today meet hui min go school.meet in bus.
saw szemin and qing yun haha,hyper liao.(:
and also hui min..
once i saw them ,my heart felt so happy and also will forget what happen last time.
the past is the past.think about the future.(:
keep smiling at each ohter like an bai chi.
then reached school liao..went up to hall..saw clement and jia hui got up together.
saw him, i striaght away turn back and pretended i've never seen him b4.
first lesson is art.....dont feel like went up to join the class.
but teacher came to look for us and then ask we al to get up.
so slowly get up lo.lol..
then art for 3 periods liao then MT.
i felt so irritated by kelvin and brian.-.-
long story.-.-
was so ban tai..
LOL.no la..playing nia..-.-

BUSY.!!GOING OUT CONTINUE TOMORROW. PS

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on dont know which day, i wanted to pon school de,i think is on last monday.

i tell hui min that i will pon school. smses her.*

i was having a slide fever.

she replied my message and she say: dont ps me lei.come school.

i was sick,and because i dont want he to get bully and being alone.i went to school.

and she also because of me she was late.and tio 20 push up.

my heart melted.almost cried.

i just cant wait to see her so i kept sms-ing her.she say she coming.and she came,

hug each other.

TO THE ONE I ADORES AND I LOVE THE MOST.

to hui min:

hui min,no matter what happen to me,you will always be there for me.

you even because of my birthdat last year,

you skip ur cca to celebrate with me.

ILY HUI MIN!

to cherylene.:

lene,i know you since sec 1.then become sisters.

slowly know wei ling,hui yu,jasmine

cian yuh they all cos by you.

some thing has bothering me you came up and look for me,

and ask what happen to me.

ILY !!

to szemin:

szemin,although i do not know how much i love you,

but ,you are also will be there for me.

i dont know what to say.

thanks for your concern and i'm very

happy to be with you all the time.

our laughter will not be the end.

ILY.!

to qing yun:

qing yun ,i just know you since sec 3.

but i can see that you really love and concern me because i'm your friend.

not just friend,is sisters.

you lied to me that you going to buy bread.

but you went to look for a cake.

qing yun,ILY VERY MUCH.!

GIRLS!

thanks for being there for me when i'm down.

i very hard to type,cos i'm crying now.

love you girls.(:

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Title : on 23 jan.

morning i was having a very high fever.

just because of wanted to see jia hui i woke up 5am in the morning,

and get prepared myself. i was weak but i tried to get strong myself 5 plus cherylene sms

me and say want pon school anot.i ask her clement got go school she say no,dont have.

jia hui told me b4 that if his brothers not going to school he will pon.

so i agreed to pon. cos clement nvr go jia hui should be not going. i'm not too sure yet.

so i ask szemin wanna pon school today with cherylene.? she say cannot.later teacher suspect.cos

last year we also like that then teacher suspect us le.some more last year and this year de form teacher is the same teacher. so i say now i meet you then later say..now i go down le.

hais..sigh..i slowly walk down the stairs and open up the door and walk out from house.

was going to faint. but did'nt i continue walking.when going to reach szemine house there de busstop i sms her that i reach le. so she ask me to wait. i sms jia hui ,i ask him that today he got pon school? he say no. he was going to school.so i sms chertlene that i'm going to school.

cos jia hui going.then she say okay lo go school lo.so me and szemin walk go mrt there wait for qing yun. she came...then walk to bus stop wait for 53 .then 53 came but too many ppl.so did'nt got up.

i cannot make it i sit on the floor.and they ask me i'm i okay anot i say ya.okay..

then i stood up again and ask them wanna take cab to school? *saying that cos i wanna see jia hui.*

then they say anything lo okay..then szemin say stupid thing .she say let's go in the middle and wait.so we went. then53 came we look at szemin and blame her.*was playing only la.*

not real de.

then we walk back to the bus stop and take bus 101 to heartland and walk to school i was like omg..dont wanna let them to be worried so i kept quiet.

reach heart land took bus 115 back to school tmd..traffic jam.-.-

got out from the bus and reached school bell ring.just nice we never late. went to canteen and i saw him.!! haha..he turn and look at us and then turn back.-.-

so art time i was stress dont know what to do.

my head was spinning.very pain sia.so i cried in school.

everyone touch my fore head and say it's getting hotter.go home rest la.why come school.?

i say i dont want.i wanted to see jia hui. i sms him and say where he was,he say he was joining with 3i and 3h art class.yong chin went down to look for hui min.i ask him.did jia hui got in the art room? he say ya.

i was weak but have to rush up from 1st floor to 3rd floor. just because i wanted to see him.

i was shy so i pretend that i'm finding pencil for my friends.haha.. i look at him again and went out and rush down to pass the pencil to my friends.

hui min have performance so she need to go up to c.o room which is the same level as art room.

again i wanted to see him .i followed her up.then went in to art room.but did'nt saw him.i sms him ask him to come back lei.he came .kelvin help him to open the door.

happy can.. :D

then after that he went out again.-.- sad.i put my head down and rest.

then teacher still dont know that i'm having a fever he ask me to go down to colloect the art work and come up fast again.i say nothing ,took my bag and i agreed with the teacher.i went down and went up again.then he ask me to go down again,so i did.i did not argue.but to listen.

so i went down to see what they was doing in class.yun yi and roslyn have done.yun yi say can pei me go up to pass this art work to teacher?

i was about to cry but i did'nt i even till ask her go up 4th floor with me cos i wanted to see jia hui in class.so went up to 4th floor and walk pass his class.tiring.went down to 3rd floor again.pass it to teacher.he ask me and yun yi to go down again.i was nearly NEARLY faint out side the art room.! i pull myself up and went down with yun yi teacher say he will come down to collect.so we waited and waited till the bell rings.he did not came at all.

so we went to search for his exist and we finally found him.then pass it to him i tell him that i did not do my work i'm sorry ,and i'm having a high fever.he ask me i'm i okay?, go sick bay la.i say dont want.bye teacher. i and yun yi did not went for recess although still have a long time.

i have no appetite so she is.only the both of us in class.i saw yong chin out side and went out and ask where's hui min he say at c.o room.

okay..never mind,yong chin ask me : you okay anot?

go home rest la..stupid come school for what.?! i say dont want.

and he knows the reason that i being in school for what.

then i saw jia hui with kelvin they all have no time to care but to went in class.

he walk pass the class and he smile and wave to me.*happy.*

then got up to hall to see the performances.i saw hui min up there.!

when they played finish i tried my very best to shout hui min name.i shouted her name.!

i lost my voice again.i miss her too much althouh we were in the same class.

she ask me did i shout out her name i say yes.she say she was very touch.and say thanks to me.

i ask siti that wanna go toilet? she say ok.so i walk and ask hui min too.

i hug hui min and she was so happy to see me.haha.

after school i went to cherylene class to wait for szemine qing yun they all.

i cant stand much longer.so i kept walking there and here.

saw jia hui they al.but a min later they were gone.i ask adler where's jia hui,he say over there.

and he pop out.-.-

take mrt to serangoon with qing yun cherylene and szemin.
we wanted to go watch movie at plaza sin.then in the hot ans sunny day i walk alone.
damn hot.walk faster and and faster,finally reach home.get change, szemin kept rushing me.
think she forgotten i'm sick.
she ask me to walk faster and so i did, i'm having gastric .but i did'nt care.i walk even faster,getting more pain.
so saw qing yun and szemin with another school girl.
but standard ticket and set off..reach plaza sin.i walk all alone by myself with an psp.
everyone knows that i'm having a gastric.they concern me damn lot.
qing yun say if you dont want eat i later also dont want eat.then later both of us got gastric.
thats what are my sisters-ship is called.
so we went to mos burger.i still dont have the appetite lei.cherylene scolded me say that i must eat. if not she will tell jia hui.so i say i share with her, so she buyed and we share, she know that i was waiting for jia hui to come.
she from beside and say dont need look for him le la,he will come de.
i smiled. :X
so continue,i eat bit by bit.i cant finish it.then i look out side and saw them walking to mos burger .
-.-
then blah blah blah.

SAD PART READ!

qing yun they all went home,

left me and cherylene only.i say i wanted to go serangoon ther de playground.

so she say okay,take mrt to no where else and then

then change mrt,i sms jia hui this.

me:why today like sian sian de.

never talk like that ,not even like a stead lo.

he:dont meant it,somrthing is bothering me.

me: what thing?

he:secret :X

me: say lei.

he:i dont know i like you anot,

i dont know how i feel about you.

me: oh.then whats the use for being stead?

he: if no use then we can't continue le.then break lo

me:...i've nothing to say.

he: let's break ba. be friends.

* i ji tao cry in mrt.*

me: okay.

me again: you mean you dont have the feeling for me anymore?

he: actually have feeling de. but dont know

why dont have le.

i nvr reply.and i pass it to cherylene my phone

and show it the message.

i keep crying non stop.

i reach the station i hold cherylene and face it down and cry.

tears keep dripping,she ask me dont cry le la.

i wish i could but i can't.

i love him damn damn much can.

then i keep crying till i reach the bus stop.

i cry non stop ..

wait for the bus i still crying.

got up to bus 317 everyone was looking at me.

because i was still crying.

more then a hour i kept crying.

till i reach the playground i was still crying.

even more worse. those memories are at there on 21 jan.

i cried even harder.

till i sit the swing i stop crying but emo.

i swing harder to forget everything.

i look at cherylene and i finally smile.

8 plus,this time is cherylene pei me wait for cab le.

in taxi i was alone.i cried..hard to stop.

reach home i slam the door run up to my bedroon lock the door i cried and cried and cried.

1:i was having a high fever,beacuse of wanted to see him i went to school.

climb up and down,cried lots of time.

2:when he was sick i can't meet him,i'm worried bout him the whole day,and i cried

for him.

3:because of i lost my voice,and wanted to talk to him often,

i drink that medicine.

4: wanted to know his birthday i waste my message to ask everyone of them.

5: i went up and down because i was looking for him.

6: wanted to know where was he,i travel along the school to ask those who knows

jia hui.

did i ever does anything wrong?

did i ever exist him?

did he ever love me that way?

did he treat me that way?

what are the days with have been together?

* nothing*

what are my tears for?

*nothing*

what i've done for him is more then other the one i love.

i have never treat someone else like this b4.

tears for you is=i REALLY love you.

weakness to be stronger is =because i trusted you.

i even when back to the day we have fun together.

i cried.

i'm tired.

i canot stop what i'm thinking about.

why?

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.!!

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On 21 jan,afternoon i and cherylene was about to go kel b'day,but dont wanna.
so meet clement and serangoon play ground.both cherylene and me reached there but did'nt saw him.so cheryl called him.he ans and say he was washing hair.LOLS. then cheryl heard got another ppl beside him.guess who? that cute guy.! pang jia hui.(: so we waited for them.
we sit on the swings..and finally they came.haha..then slack slack..playing swings together.=.=
i cant get up from the swings cos i dont wanna leave the swings.(: .
then both cherylene and clement sit beside me and they chat chat chat chat chat.
another one kept swing swing swing swing swing.-.-
clement tells jia hui that he want play swing so he got up and sit with cherylene. after that clement kept talking non stop.zzz..jia hui got up and stand beside me and gently push me from the side.and tmd got higher lo...cherylene wanna push me also.so both jia hui and cherylene kept snatching..i was like cant swing la.jia hui says i want help her swing cheryl says i also want help her swing.zzzz..cherylene give up and went to clement there.haha..cute eh..

time passes by.around 6 plus,clement sticks to cherylene and so she does.
me and jia hui dont wanna be light blub between them and we walk our way.
they sit at the other side and we sit another side.i was sms-ing szemin.jia hui was sitting beside me and snatch my phone and reply szemin this ->dont disturb us la,dont reply le byes.i'm jia hui.
i was like..er....nothing to say but to hit his shoulder.
bored.! i seldom talk cos of my voice.-.- he seldom talk cos i never talk.lol.
then i carry his bag,he carry mine.-.- so comfortable can.LOL.
then i and cherylene walk together go other place to sit. both ment and jia followed behind us.
reach the place ment and cherylene sits together. i sit far away from jia.
dont wish to be light bulb again i walk by myself.walk back to the playground there and sit alone.
dont know when jia hui pop come out with no where. and sits beside me.* like my stead* haha. :X
both never talk. just look at each other and keep smiling.-.-
suddenly,cherylene sms say that i'm going home a few more min later.
i stood up and ask jia hui that wanna go find them.? he never say anything but he stand up and look at me and walk.O.o woots. then walk together.
i saw something that i should not see.i pulled jia hui back and pointed at them.
but too bad she saw us,and she even ran towards me and jia hui and ask me what did i saw just now i say nothing and keep smiling.zzz..so never mind ment and cheryl took thier bags and set off.walk and walk and walk...ment and cheryl in front ,jia hui and me behind. then walk to the swing there slack awhile more..then cherylene say that she has to go home now.
so ment sent her home.
jia hui pei me wait for cab.still carrying each other bag.
then clement came.still waiting.i pass jia hui bag back to jia hui but he doesnt want to give me back my bag.zzz..but still return.got in the taxi and say byebye.=.=

at around 8 or 9 pm,i sms cherylene that does jia hui like me?
she say dont know i help you ask.
i say okay.
a few mins later she reply and say : ya he likes you.why not consider him?
me:er..dont know lei.
she: consider him la, he so cute.
me: hmmm..i try ? .
she: accept him la.
me: er ,okay lo.anything.
i agreed to stead with him.
think cherylene gave him my num ba.
then he sms me lo..
and ask stupid questions.haha.

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HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO...
today day was too random.
many things happen.zzz..ji tao sian diao lo.
dont wanna say it ...
today meet yong lin and lorenzo at mac round 6++ like that.
waiting for yong chin.but he haven come WTF.then nvr mind..
we du lan ,the three of us go first then i send yong chin a message says that we not waiting for him le,we go first.then walk walk walk..walk to back gate to buy something that we shouldnt buy.i bought some sweets and 4 watermelon lollipops.then take lift up to 11 floor to S.M.O.K.E.
but i never la.see i so guai.(: LOL.
then lorenzo and yong lin smoke finsish liao then take lift down,walk to ma ma shop ,yong lin buy
sweet for his AIREN.buy le then walk to school.put our bags,chat awhile. then me and yong lin
went to find szemin they all.
haha..
then blah blah blah..

next is mathematics lesson,mr neo gave us maths test.
then all finish liao,mdm amrit came in our class to have a check up.
check whether got cigarettes and lighter not.
then we have to stand behing in one straight rows. but we did'nt lur.
anyhow stand LOL.
all the girl tack in and un fold skirts.
boy tack in and diam diam.=.=
i was like so hyper la.HAHA...my clip was not acceptable,but she like dont mind what
colour i wear lo.=.=
check all our pockets and all that.
finish liao then check our bag.
and WTH im the first one who kena check by her lo,she check my bag but found nothing.
one by one.till reach yong jie bag.think got 4 sticks.then he kena..
okay then say bye bye to mdm amrit le.
all settle down.
then dont know which idiot say that i wear blue colour bra.red panties.=.=
only the bra one correct,the panties is wrong.it was orangeee..haha..
then alot nonsense come out from thier mouth.
then cpa then ebp then after school went to find cherylene they all.
but they need to stay till 2.15.so went to 3d to find hui min they all.
chat chat chat..laugh laugh laugh.LOL.i'm the one who make them laugh.
they dont know why they call me xiao hua.the capus shrewd de xiao hua.=.=
haha.
then cherylene they all come out liao.
then go heart land mall eat yoshi.
then cherylene went go to her cca.
me szemin and qing yun went to buy bra.
but szemin got no time so ask we all to help her buy.
black colour de.
then bought shoes lace for me ,qing yun,szemim and cherylene.
haha.(:
then went to szemin house play psp.=.=
then 6++ walk back home.
then the end.
we wearing black tomorrow.(:
hahaha..

ILY

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i'm back for posting.(:
have been sick for days.
haha.
i dont know why now adays kept on saing ''ba diao'' this word.
brian say de.thats was his word. i steal it.(: ahah
the way he say was like funny..=.= so thats why i steal his word lo.(:
btw..i have not post more many days le.lols.
i remember that ba diao took my ba diao clip..zzz..(jia hui)=.=
my pink colour clip lei..haish..think he went home and clip his hair le ba..
LOL,no la.kidding.(:
actually today was about tp went out with friends, but my daddy dont wanna give me money.
so,like that lo.
sad right..
k la,anw, i've nothing to say right now.shcool days was busy.
so yea..(:

ILY

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felicia is sick now D:
so szemin is helping her to post [:
she in my house and lying on the sofa now. LOL.
and she dont know wad time she wanna go home, cause she say she loves szemin too much ( she say de ) :D
she damn crazy today and make me laugh like siaoooooooo.
we both kept saying 'ba tiao' , 'ba tiao' ! andand, ' ba yi', ba yi' andand, 'kuay tiao' and 'bush' !
andand, the mari kita teacher, we think she got stroke.
damn funnyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
kept saying those nonsense ><
she now sick already yet she's still laughing beside me when i type this.
HAHA.
today damn fun can liao.
me and felicia laughing can already, both like idiots {:
iloveher ^^

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today, maybe go out with ...
yong chin,hui min,howie,roy,irvin and lorenzo..
actually yong lin got go de,but he kept saying no money and dont know.
so not sure he got go not leh..hais..so little ppl going sia..
is sian de okayyy..):
ask kliff but he got work so can't.
hope hui min can go.))):

later meet at dyon house down stairs around 12.40 .
i go bath first then prepared everthing.(:

byebye.(:

ILY

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it has been days.
i'm having good time in school.(:
yay!! i was god damn happy.can see the one i love muahahah.(:
i was going to transfer class but cant.!
reason,full.and the reason i wanted to transfer class is because of some one.zzz.
that monkey..!! KELVIN TAN WEN QIANG.!
hate him so much can.
keep bully me..only me.!! nvr bully hui min.zzz..what an ass.
tomorrow not sure going out with my class ppl not leh..
so many ppl dont want go..
more ppl is the best cannnn..going ask brian and monkey.but dont have thier no.LOLS.!!
okay..i will be continue posting tomorrow.
hahassssss.BYE DUDE AND BABES.!
ILY.!!

ILOVE SZEMIN,CHERYLENE AND QING YUN!!
HAHA.(: have the most time with them.(:

ILY.

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seriously.
someone has been too stupid then i thought.
i dont know what they want now, and, are they jealous of me?
and they are too much for this.
maybe , thats call cyber bullying. if it was, cyber bullying is an big offences.
i dont mind ppl say me fucker,bitch,or what ever shit it goes, well,i really dont mind.
cos those words were they say , thats refers to their own.
i might be very hot temper some time.

AND.
so what if i am a bitch,stupid,useless,ugly,ass hole or fucker?
do you all really care?
do you all really wish to be IN that way?
do you all know me that well?
why do you want to judge me for who i am?

so what if my ex side on you.?
do i need to care that much?
tell me,so what if i am a bitch or what ever you think of me?
SO WHAT?!

AND THIS IS MY BLOG.!
NOT YOURS DUDE.!

please note that who's the kid refers to?
who's the bitch refers to?
look at yourself in the mirror then come say me.

and why can't i have bf uh?
so what if i want?
my own life , need you to lead meh?
you my who?
think.

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